Day 41 Ah, The Indignity of It All!

I went shopping yesterday for my postsurgery needs.  Not a happy time for me.
First stop was to buy some giant pajamas.  I do not like gowns so this meant I had to buy pj's large enough not to be binding on my stomach.  XXL with a draw string should do the job.  Okay, so they gather on the floor at my feet.  I can hike them up above my waist and there'll still be plenty of room.  Oh my gosh.  They're huge.  Next was nine pair of the ugliest granny panties ever made - also XXL - and I think I will probably still clip the waistband so there will be nothing touching the incision.

Then....... the very worst.  I bought a huge package of Depends.  Yes, I did my best to hide them in the bottom of the shopping basket just in case I ran into anyone I knew in Walmart which is usually the case.   After that, with as much piled on top of the Depands as I could manage,  I began to look for the disposable bed pads I had seen advertised on tv for kiddos with bed wetting problems.  They sit on top of the sheet and stick to it so they won't move or bunch up during the night.  I had three workers looking for them to no avail.  The closest thing I could find was Puppy PeePee Training Pads.  I did actually pick the package up, check out the size and tried to imagine sleeping on one of those.  Not.  Guess that was where I had to draw the line.  I don't know why I'm so worried.  About all I'll get is clear broth with noodles, clear juice, and mashed potatoes for the first couple of weeks.  That and some Ensure. 

I have to admit, I'm getting nervous about tomorrow.  I am confident about the outcome, but still nervous.  I think this must be a little like dying.  I know where I'm going to end up in the long run, but it's the process I'm not looking forward to.   I check in at 11am and surgery is scheduled for 1pm.  I've been telling everyone 2pm.  Don't know where I got that idea.  It is expected to take about 4 hours if it's completed as a laproscopic surgery and longer if it has to be completed as an open surgery.   

So, I'm going to stay busy today.  Chicken and Dumplings are on the schedule so there'll be something in the fridge for whoever ends up staying with me.  I'm going to wash bedding, vacuum and mop, work on some paintings that should have already been finished, pay bills, plan what I'm going to take with me to the hospital, and then start drinking that stuff (shudder).   Tineke's husband, Dionel,  is picking up Chipper this evening to take to their house while I'm in the hospital.  I'll probably be a little weepy about that but Chipper will be happy.  He adores Dionel.  

So, that' my day.  Just me and the Lord, working our way through, me talking, Him listening and comforting.  This prayer was included with some healing scriptures that Pastor RO gave me on Sunday.  It's from 1 Corinthians 6:19,20.  I share it with everyone reading this to pray it as well for themselves.

Precious Father,
I was bought with a price and I will glorify the Lord with my body for my body is a temple of the Holy Spirit.  I am not my own.  I will talk of Your wonderous works.  I will give You thanks for You are Good.  I will declare Your greatness and bless Your name forever and ever.
In Jesus' name,
Amen